It’s late at night right now. I just finished my math about an hour ago or so. I hope I get extra credit on that shit ! And everybody will be like,”Oh, Greg actually did his homework right and I didn’t!?” and I’ll just be sitting there saying,”That’s right bitches.” Which, most likely will happen. Because every time I do my homework right or whatever, the girl in front of me, always giving me shit for not doing it right or not doing it at all, doesn’t do it and, ironically, copies off of me. That bitch. I should just be an ass like her and not even let her glance at my paper. And damn, that was a lot of commas in one sentence. I think I might have hyper-corrected that. Anyways, this is completely irrelevant because this isn’t even what I want to write about. So, I apologize for wasting your time.
What I do want to write about, though, is about that very special someone in my life whom I adore and love deeply. This whole week was a huge struggle for me. I never told you, or anyone, how I was really feeling. But I felt so shitty. Every day I just sat down with my head throbbing, trying to get my mind onto something else and at least be temporarily happy. I just kept feeling that we were drifting away and maybe we didn’t have much left. And I was trying so hard to grasp what I thought we did have left, but everything seemed to have changed and it was hard. I dreaded losing you and was afraid it could happen. I didn’t want to tell you because I had a gut feeling that it was just a phase, and I knew there must be some way to get over it soon. My mind went blank for a while. And I was just hoping every day that the phase would end soon because I loathed the feeling. I wasn’t making it any better by thinking about it too much, and I tried not to, but it kept coming back. But then yesterday. I saw you for the first time in what seemed an eternity. You were so beautiful, your smile made me go in world of bliss, and just being able to see your face was like a life savior to me. Seeing you made me so, so, so happy that I, literally, almost couldn’t handle it. I honestly didn’t think it could have made me so happy. It raised my spirits 100%. Finally, I knew what it felt like to be happy again. It was so special to me. My mind has been restored. I dream happy thoughts again. I see your beautiful smile shining in my head every minute. And then to add on to all of that, I saw you again today. And it made me so happy all over again and ever more happy. And you made my whole week amazing. And I’ll be thinking of this weekend all week, and I’m sue I’ll still be smiling the whole time. I hope to start seeing you a lot more often again. I didn’t think I ever took it for granted before, but apparently I did, because it feels so good to see you. I could keep going on and on about how amazing it is to see you, but I think you’ve got the gist of it now. I just know that everything feels better than normal. As long as I can keep seeing your smile and keep making you smile and hearing your cute laugh and seeing the love you have for me in your smiles, I know I’ll never stop being happy. And of course every other little thing adds onto it. Ahh I don’t know where to end this because there’s so much I could say, but I know that you know that I truly do love you. And I felt so deeply in love with you this weekend. And I care for you a lot. You’re all I need. I love you, Liz.
(I wonder how long it’ll take for you to read this)
What are YOU in the mood for right now?
